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HAS ANYONE SEEN THE SIZE OF AN EPIDURAL NEEDLE. W T F.

Operation Sort-Your-Life-Out

I actually had a very productive day yesturday.
Whilst in Topshop changing room trying on clothes I knew I didn't feel comfortable in or look good in I had a revelation. I am not happy about anything right now! So.. what do you do?

make a change! sort it out! 

If I am so unhappy about everything , it's only I who can make a difference and do something about it.

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  Unhappy about body- get exercising and doing Divina then!    

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  Unhappy about home - talk to mum and sort yourself out!

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  Unhappy about appearance - then look in the mirror long and hard and make serious decisions

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  Unhappy about current status- then get out there and find    someone!

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  Unhappy about the way I act - drop the act!

I call it

operation sort your life out!

I also got a nice top from Topshop. Stripppppy babbbbbyy :P

Gigs and rags

Ellie Goulding was surprisingly good . I say it like I'm shocked , but I didn't really want to go if I'm honest haha. Sam's band Disorder the night before was also good , the Straw Hats were pretty cool aswell :)
Decided I'm going to definatly go to college , I think a fresh start is best for all of us. That and I think the people of Trinity will want to kill themselves if they have to endure another 2 years of me haha.

Saw this dress in Past and Present the other day - a 50's style LEOPARD PRINT lil thang. I love it. But there's many problems.
1. will I look like a dick
2. will it fit.
3. will it go with my hair
4. do I really want it.
... the choices girls have to make haha.

...

good things come to those who wait
well my friend , it's out the gate.
what goes up must come down,
a chearful smile. a sorrow-filled frown.

as the division of happiness, joy , takes it's toll.
Like they said ' she's lost control'
spinning out of time and space.
smeared lipstick and scars lay on my face.
'your life' he said 'is a disgrace
Remember this aint a scene - it's a god damn arms race'.
I say 'this aint a game it's a god damn horse race'.
This princess will fall from grace.
I don't see no history in the eyes on your face.
I see hurt , regret , death , fear.
You're no longer welcomed here.

This is how I see you dear.

I have an unhealthy obsession with corsets and fancy items.
I am not in denial.
Now I've admitted it , can you buy me that stealboned loveheart beauty?

Prom Dress Panic.

With 1/3 of my Download ticket paid off it dawned on me.

I have no prom dress yet


SHIT

but - I know what I'm going to get.
The thing with me is I love tight dresses , laseups 'bondage' inspired victorian dresses and corsets.
this is apparent in the two dresses I have short listed for my prom dress:

Bring on down dress number 1...

                            I love this site and I love this dress really figure hugging and lovely :)

And dress number two? ...

irrestistable!!!!!!!!

now for the hair! Purple , red or black? hmmm maybe all of it ;)

Your blood is the ink in my heart

I need a tattoo!!
I need it now.

'love will tear us apart.. again'

Not like anyone reads this silly little thing , but I'm going to apologise for not posting anything for a long tiime.
Currently once again in IT. My teacher looks like a cat.

meow.

stupid friggin picture thing wont let me upload.

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets

Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keep

them

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets

I know you'll keep them, and this is what I've

done

I've been a bad, bad girl for so long

I don't know how to change what went wrong

Daddy's little girl when he went away

What did it teach me? That love leaves

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets

Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keep

them

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets

I know you'll keep them, and this is what I've

done

I've been down every road you could go

I made some bad choices as you know

Seems I have the whole world cradled in my hands

But its just like me not to understand

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets

Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keep

them

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets

I've been a bad, bad girl

I learned my lessons

I turned myself around

I've got a guardian angel tattooed on my shoulder
She's been watching over me

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets

Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keep

them

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets
I've been a bad, bad girl

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets
Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keep

them

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets

I've been a bad, bad girl

I've been a bad, bad girl .