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HAS ANYONE SEEN THE SIZE OF AN EPIDURAL NEEDLE. W T F.

Operation Sort-Your-Life-Out

I actually had a very productive day yesturday.
Whilst in Topshop changing room trying on clothes I knew I didn't feel comfortable in or look good in I had a revelation. I am not happy about anything right now! So.. what do you do?

make a change! sort it out! 

If I am so unhappy about everything , it's only I who can make a difference and do something about it.

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  Unhappy about body- get exercising and doing Divina then!    

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  Unhappy about home - talk to mum and sort yourself out!

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  Unhappy about appearance - then look in the mirror long and hard and make serious decisions

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  Unhappy about current status- then get out there and find    someone!

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  Unhappy about the way I act - drop the act!

I call it

operation sort your life out!

I also got a nice top from Topshop. Stripppppy babbbbbyy :P

Gigs and rags

Ellie Goulding was surprisingly good . I say it like I'm shocked , but I didn't really want to go if I'm honest haha. Sam's band Disorder the night before was also good , the Straw Hats were pretty cool aswell :)
Decided I'm going to definatly go to college , I think a fresh start is best for all of us. That and I think the people of Trinity will want to kill themselves if they have to endure another 2 years of me haha.

Saw this dress in Past and Present the other day - a 50's style LEOPARD PRINT lil thang. I love it. But there's many problems.
1. will I look like a dick
2. will it fit.
3. will it go with my hair
4. do I really want it.
... the choices girls have to make haha.

...

good things come to those who wait
well my friend , it's out the gate.
what goes up must come down,
a chearful smile. a sorrow-filled frown.

as the division of happiness, joy , takes it's toll.
Like they said ' she's lost control'
spinning out of time and space.
smeared lipstick and scars lay on my face.
'your life' he said 'is a disgrace
Remember this aint a scene - it's a god damn arms race'.
I say 'this aint a game it's a god damn horse race'.
This princess will fall from grace.
I don't see no history in the eyes on your face.
I see hurt , regret , death , fear.
You're no longer welcomed here.

This is how I see you dear.

I have an unhealthy obsession with corsets and fancy items.
I am not in denial.
Now I've admitted it , can you buy me that stealboned loveheart beauty?

Prom Dress Panic.

With 1/3 of my Download ticket paid off it dawned on me.

I have no prom dress yet


SHIT

but - I know what I'm going to get.
The thing with me is I love tight dresses , laseups 'bondage' inspired victorian dresses and corsets.
this is apparent in the two dresses I have short listed for my prom dress:

Bring on down dress number 1...

                            I love this site and I love this dress really figure hugging and lovely :)

And dress number two? ...

irrestistable!!!!!!!!

now for the hair! Purple , red or black? hmmm maybe all of it ;)

Your blood is the ink in my heart

I need a tattoo!!
I need it now.

'love will tear us apart.. again'

Not like anyone reads this silly little thing , but I'm going to apologise for not posting anything for a long tiime.
Currently once again in IT. My teacher looks like a cat.

meow.

stupid friggin picture thing wont let me upload.

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets

Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keep

them

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets

I know you'll keep them, and this is what I've

done

I've been a bad, bad girl for so long

I don't know how to change what went wrong

Daddy's little girl when he went away

What did it teach me? That love leaves

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets

Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keep

them

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets

I know you'll keep them, and this is what I've

done

I've been down every road you could go

I made some bad choices as you know

Seems I have the whole world cradled in my hands

But its just like me not to understand

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets

Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keep

them

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets

I've been a bad, bad girl

I learned my lessons

I turned myself around

I've got a guardian angel tattooed on my shoulder
She's been watching over me

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets

Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keep

them

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets
I've been a bad, bad girl

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets
Cuz you're the only one that I know who'll keep

them

Dear, dear diary, I want to tell my secrets

I've been a bad, bad girl

I've been a bad, bad girl .
 
 

I have contracted 24hour flu , which seems to be heading for 48.
I still have to go to the gym.
Tons of coursework.
I might actually kill myself.

Saying that , I'm going shopping today haha,
need knew clothes and foundation- oh the joys.
I might pass out in the gym with illness.
Wish me luck!

I have been thinking.
Change is a must.
Look into the love side
Not into the lust.

New eye make-up every weekend :)

I have noticed that my profile has lacked pictures ...

I can change I've seen a different page. It's in my head.

School bores me.
Currently sat in a IT room making a presentation on individual style.
Individual style? Pahahaha , people just copy each other these days.
Like the humble fur coat for example.
Famously donned by Edie Sedgwick and a few people around places like London .
Mostly warn by the rich.
 Since animal rights became a huge statement in our world , fur coats sunk into the distance
and fake ones were rarely seen.

WELL WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON NOW?
Seriously!
You cannot go out into the town centre without seeing somone wearing one.
It pisses me off.
In September I brought my fur coat after searching for one for about... 2 months.
Brought one - 30 pounds [pound symbol not working , chears school.] , Camden .
My lookbook - with the coat since school comp is being twatty

Literally THAT weekend , our good ole Topshop [ sarcasm intended ] brought out there leopard print one.
As usual , because it's in topshop you must have it.
Originality never killed anyone!!!!!

Be that as it may , I still love my baby to pieces.
[ photos will be posted later]

Vintage fair? Done.
Photos coming soon  ... this is what happens when you leave your beautiful camera on a bus.
 Today was very successful though.
Purchases?

1. one Japanese themed dress - £1
2. One big bow hair clip - 50p
3. Headband £2

I did buy a hat , but it was £6 and I wanted my money back.
Me and Chloe then desided to go normal shopping where I added a £5 velvet skirt to the kitty.

I'm not afraid to admit that I haven't seen ' Avatar' yet.
but I hear it is worth the watch? haha.

I'm done with fun
I'm tragic with magic
the songs be sung
Somebody hold me
The world's gone manic.

it's a little bit funny...

this feeling inside

I'm not one of those people who can easily hide..

The Nottingham Vintage Market is this Sunday, actually cannot wait. But there is a slight little problem....

I HAVE NO MONEY.

fml haha. I am going to try and get some - l will even if it kills me believe me!

Ok , so my gym instructor is trying to kill me.

I know it sounds like I'm being a bit ott , but his fitness plan will actually be the death of me.
My trainer is like.. hardcore.
I'm being weighed every 2 weeks.
I have to learn about nutrition
Stick to a mean plan.
DIE DIE DIE.

But I'm gonna love the results I know it.
And Shiela Garton is a legend.

Inch by Inch.
Pound for Pound .
Soon my waiste will be found.
- my mantra.

Burlesque queen of the movie screen..

Just Dancing With Tears In My Eyes..

With one set of exams completed , school still insist on banging on about the next load.
Give us a frigging break?

I seriously need new clothes and a thinner body to snuggle into them.
The program ' Super Skinny Me' does the opposite of what it was made for and actually persuades me to go to the gym and burn those cals!

Georgies gig is on Friday ... should be good
Vintage Fair on Sunday - got some real bargins in the previous one , so this one should be even better!

Everybodies changing , but I can't feel a thing.

Music fuels the mind.
Take a look and you will find.
We're all pink inside.

Another load of random shit I like to just come up with when I'm supposed to be doing something constructive.
I really should do my Spanish coursework about English Style...
if only l was fluent...

it's time to come clean and make sense of everything ,
It's time we found who are>

The Beauty of the killer sticks

Answer me this.

Why is it that when you see models smoking tabs does it look amazingly chic and stylish , but if then frown on any other beautiful women? Like I usually say , everybody's a hypocrite..

Don't lean on me man cause I can't afford the ticket , l'm back from Suffragette city..